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- January 19th, 23:55
tonight, as I was leaving my therapist's office, I missed the last two steps coming down stairs and fell, hard onto my knee to the landing and thus running the top left part of my head directly into the solid wood door. Thinking about it now, I am very lucky I didn't hit the glass part, that could have been ugly.
Both my therapist and another woman came rushing down the stairs to find me on my butt on the landing, clutching my head. Not only did my head feel smashed, my knee did too. I had landed with all my weight onto my right knee and now it is blown up like a balloon. ugh.
I held it together mostly until I was outside, then I just lost it, right there on the sidewalk. I was so embarrassed, I was felt so ashamed. While I have embraced the fact that I have a traumatic brain injury, I still have issues with it. Its always the last step, or the last two steps that my brain just cant process. I can not even begin to count how many times I have missed and fell from one or two steps. IT is a combination of depth perception and balance. I dont even try to catch myself anymore, because most times, I end up hurting myself more when I do. So I just try to tuck and roll... if that makes sense.
So here I sit, at midnight, afraid to go to sleep. While my head doesnt hurt nearly as much as it did earlier, It still hurts a decent amount.... and its a totally differnet hurt than a headache or a migraine (yes, those feel two totoally different ways).
I am tired, but again... I am afraid to sleep. So i dont know what I am going to do.
I have never really hit my head this hard from falling before. Its scary to me.